I thought I had done a lot of introspection when it comes to this time of my life but writing it out has really thrown me a curve ball. I tried to write yesterday, and the day before, but I just didn’t have it in me to relive everything again.
I no longer blame him for everything that happened. I was a willing participant in the relationship, and I have accepted my part in the chaos. I am currently working to accept that after 40+ years, there likely won’t be closure.
I want to say I have moved on completely. That I value my worth now, and it doesn’t matter what anyone else says, or what has happened in the past. It still hurts. Accepting my part while the relationship was occurring is one thing, but accepting responsibility for the betrayal that occurred so soon afterwards blindsided me in a way I had never felt before. I’ve felt it since, but the first cut was deep and long lasting.
What exactly is a “Love Bomber” and how in the world do you see them coming?
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